9 So we have not stopped praying for you since we first heard about you. We ask God to give you complete knowledge of his will and to give you spiritual wisdom and understanding. 10 Then the way you live will always honor and please the Lord, and your lives will produce every kind of good fruit. All the while, you will grow as you learn to know God better and better.
11 We also pray that you will be strengthened with all his glorious power so you will have all the endurance and patience you need. May you be filled with joy,[c] 12 always thanking the Father. He has enabled you to share in the inheritance that belongs to his people, who live in the light. 13 For he has rescued us from the kingdom of darkness and transferred us into the Kingdom of his dear Son, 14 who purchased our freedom[d] and forgave our sins.
So anyways,, this Saturday, I was supposed to do these sprints all day, which i did. But then afterwards one of the clubs had shut down and was only letting all the swimmers from all over scotland in! A big swimmer party!! i had already paid for my meal and everything.. But then i had NO peace about going to this... and i had no peace about anything.. sooooo i waited and God told me to wait and he would tell me... i was urging him cause i didnt want to be late if the option was edinburgh and i was already 15 min late to the dinner... and then he finally told me to go to Edinburgh... at 5:12pm the train left at 5:35 pm.... i went to my room got warm clothes on... walked ll the way across campus,, when walking on the bridge i saw the bus and knew in my heart that i had to catch that one to get there on time. i was all worrying about what if i caught it what then should i go to another one blah blah... i went through the school and down these steps and i ran to the bus stops i just made it onto the bus... i was a block away from the train station and my friend calls me and sees where i am and he then bus me the train ticket, i jump off the bus and get to him and we go in and get to the platform right when the train pulls up and then pulls away with us in it!!! perfecto! I was meant to go tonight... i read in 2 Corninthians and it changed my life.. i am changed everyday it seems :)
New Living Translation (NLT)
2 Corinthians 1
Greetings from Paul
1 This letter is from Paul, chosen by the will of God to be an apostle of Christ Jesus, and from our brother Timothy. I am writing to God’s church in Corinth and to all of his holy people throughout Greece.[a]2 May God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ give you grace and peace.
God Offers Comfort to All
3 All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is our merciful Father and the source of all comfort. 4 He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us. 5 For the more we suffer for Christ, the more God will shower us with his comfort through Christ. 6 Even when we are weighed down with troubles, it is for your comfort and salvation! For when we ourselves are comforted, we will certainly comfort you. Then you can patiently endure the same things we suffer. 7 We are confident that as you share in our sufferings, you will also share in the comfort God gives us. 8 We think you ought to know, dear brothers and sisters,[b] about the trouble we went through in the province of Asia. We were crushed and overwhelmed beyond our ability to endure, and we thought we would never live through it. 9 In fact, we expected to die. But as a result, we stopped relying on ourselves and learned to rely only on God, who raises the dead. 10 And he did rescue us from mortal danger, and he will rescue us again. We have placed our confidence in him, and he will continue to rescue us. 11 And you are helping us by praying for us. Then many people will give thanks because God has graciously answered so many prayers for our safety.I read this on the train and proceded to enjoy the night... Then i came to the large group of people and the social time. This is the time where i usually am walking all around talking to everyone.. yet there was this crazy thing.... i couldnt! i felt this extreme lonliness that i imagine shy people feel when in big crowds of people. I knew that Jesus was renewing a passion in me for those who are excluded on the outside and to bring them in.
also i found out that a part of my identity had been wrapped up in how i am socially, that i am a chatting and i get along with almost everyone. But there are the days when i cant do that and thats when i dont go out,,, but now i have to obey Jesus when i am to go no matter how I FEEL. my strength is depleted but that is when he can be the most strong in me. in those moments i am drawn more towards Jesus and i remember to pray. I feel like Jesus is Jealous for my heart,, ALL of it!!! even the part that just likes to socialize... he wants it all. I feel my confidence in myself and my own outgoing personality fading and i find myself praying for confidence in Jesus,, to grow in that more... That i shall boast only in the Lord and in him i find my strength.. "My heart and my flesh may fail, but you are the strength of my heart and my portion forever." Ps. 73:26... well to tell you the truth I am so glad... that night i found 10 pounds on the ground by the bus stop.. and was able to give it back to God in a tithe at a church I LOVE :) so excited for what God is gonna do for Scotland :))) he is going to revive them :) I know you take care of Me JESUs thank you for making me aware of it every single moment..! I am officially comeing back to LAX Dec. 15th :) home for Christmas oxooxox
