May 5 second day in Colorado

Amazing day began day by giving my whole heart and all concerns to Jesus. Reflected on his word and did 34 min kinethetics.

Met up w friend Jon and we went to Boulder ate @ salt and hiked a mountain. Also we enjoyed exploring a local bookstore. Went grocery shopping. We had a blast catching up and chatting about anything and everything.  Such a blessed day to be treated to lunch and groceries. I am overwhelmed with how God is taking care of me. What a blessed daay! I am ready to pick up my friend Leah @ z airport!

Colorado

Landed in Colorado for my first trip since graduation Hawaii trip last may 10! I wake up sat. May 4th @ 3:30 am scramble to get to the Hyatt hotel to be picked up by the Airbus. My sweet boyfriend stands to wave goodbye and blow me kisses as I set off.
A couple hours later I am bustling through the airport getting ob the plane and wala land in Colorado.
I spend the afternoon catching up w a dear friend I have known for 5 years now Brandon Heidemann. Such a blessing and joy to be around. He is constantly encouraging me to seek after God and live on the edge on a precipice of faith.

I walk out in faith not knowing where to go or stay for the night. Try to make Calls so I can go to the gala dinner yet there is no response. Brandon invites me to go to red rocks amphitheatre to see Kari Jobe and Chris Tomlin play on their last night of the burning lights tour.

I had prayed in my heart to God that I could go. I didn't tell Brandon yet he invited me and I got to be taken on an adventure. Where we got to arrive @ 4:45 2 1/2 hours early get free VIP seating and reminiscent about the concert that we put on 2 years ago @ that same venue. How absolutely magical that location is and how awesomely romantic Jesus is.

I felt so deeply loved by Jesus last night worshiping him w some amazing music in his creation!  I am awestruck with blessing. I will post pics as soon as I get wifi to connect pics to tablet.

Then after the amazing show I get to stay @ a house in wheatridge co. Get my own house for the night! My friend r outa town and said I could sttay here all week. How blessed am I!?

Today I bow my knees to my Jesus and I say thank you for your word, your presence, and your promises. Help me remember the blessing and live fully in you. Help me look in your eyes and know I am safe and loved. "You reach out your hand, and the power of your right hand saves me. The lord will work out his plans for my life- for your faithful love, o lord, endures forever. DONT abandon me, for you made me." Psalm 138:7-8

Worth

Worth it all...a song I once heard. We have all heard songs of love..of life.  Of heart ache...there is a gentle pull towards the lyrics but an overall lurching of the spirit to be healed by the magic touch of tone.

Lord I pray that I can know what I am living for...that I can remember you are my life...you do fill me with overwhelming joy and comfort my soul. I may feel alone or @ loss. But I have decided I will wait for you. I pray that every moment I remember you and I choose to honor you and please you above all. I need you to move my soul to be my hero to be my sweetheart. My heart is taring In my chest...the thought of lonely nights and no hand reaching out to me to hold...it Burns and stings to think this could be it. This is the last touch ..the last moment...

Dates w Jesus

I have the strongest pull to be romanced by Jesus. And I am pretty hard to get so I been telling him I have a bf we can only be friends. But he has the kindest eyes and the purest of intentions.  He says "come away with me...I want u to see things u only dreamed of, hear music that makes your soul sour, and laugh like u never cried.." he tells me he can be my comforter and he can love me. That I just need to take a chance risk the jump be all his, give him my whole heart. I say to him " I have a bf but I will think about this, you can be my friend" then through this silly romance with the king of the world I decide,  lets have coffee and I will get to know you. I sit here now, asking " what do u see for us? What is your vision for our future" and now he wants to show me and not even tell me he says " put ur faith in me,  I have known you and I have been seeking you since the first time Light hit your eyes... OK show me....

Momma

Dreaming with Shay

We r dreaming about possibilities! They r endless! We could move to new York, Chicago,  Los Angeles, or Australia!  We have opportunity and we can do it! Lets pray and the more we do the more we dream. We gave to God our lives... God u r the Creator ...so create our lives! We give up our paint brushes and let him do it. We always make a mess of everything! We r ready to look and surrender and move with God and his purposes

The call back

The day! Denae Farley did my makeup @ Saks fifth avenue in Beverly hills! I saw channing Tatum @ the salad shop!  And another celebrity @ Saks. I see them and I see how they r no different than u nd I. Yet they pursued their career made it through the challenges that is in the acting business.

Wednesday january 16 was my day to see if i want to tackle the challengea of the acting business. I had a full day to prepare and go to the casting call in Beverly hills california. The company i interview with happens to be a fortune 5000 company! Their clients are HBO ABC NBC and lots of others as well as fashion companies! They have offices in new York Chicago Austin San Francisco and la! My interview went smoothly, I go very excited and represented myself well. I got a call back and was supposed to go there today.  It all happened too fast for me. Therefore I got scared and came home to think.

They said I can try and reschedule on Monday but they don't usually reschedule call backs! So if not that is fine. But now that I am sitting on the potential and the realization that it takes time, money and effort and dedication, passion, persistance, and a thick skin to do this. I know I could do it, yet I am deciding if it's what God wants me to invest my heart and time into! Any kind of serious career where u make money does take risk and all those things mentioned above. I believe I am cut for something like this and would really love to be able to be a part of music videos, photoshoots, and film. To portray a character and bring them to life so millions of people can feel and experience a story of another and sink their feet into someone's shoes. That sounds thrilling.
God does things in suddenly's yet our culture does things in a false sense of urgency! I am trying to decipher if its a God "suddenly" or an unnecessary urgency.

I still have potential and I am still open to the pursuit of an adventurous career. It would really be great to star in films. Not just so I can be important, but rather so I can be successful and have a lot more to give and opportunities to grasp.

Wakr n bacon

The morning after the high energy day in beveryly hills! I am reflecting on the excitement of the day with my dad @ breakfast.

Know that a sense of urgency is not what I need to move by. Rather take a moment and decide what direction you want to take and if its a true opportunity it will still be there

Lakers game!

I am so èxcited about the next two days! Me and my sweetie Trevor are driving to la to see a Lakers game tonight against milwalkee bucks!  We will get to be super fans and have a blast!!.

We had a grand time! Went to ESPN zone got a Jameson on z rocks! And some nachos! Then we walked around took pictures had fun looking at all the lights! And the game was stellar! Lakers won Ans kept the bucks under 100 so we got free tacos!!! There was dancers and fun half time show! Trevor and I had a blast being super spirited! Go Lakers

Delighted life

Today,
I take a moment to be grateful! God has blessed me in overwhelming ways! Everyday I am struck to the core of my mushy heart by the love I have not earned!
My brother and his wife Amy had a special gift last year her name is Rachel Grace! GOD blessed their family but also he brought all the BIlows back together. Our beating hearts are magnets for each other and r thirsty for family time! Rachel has a sweet way of bringing out the best in us. Lord I lift her up to you and trust you to care for her! To grow her in your deep love that she will know your grace and her heart will beat close to yours!

I am grateful for my household of a gorgeous cuddly kitten who's soul purpose is to make us feel so important! !!!

Thank you Jesus for my bestest friend Sharayah Lynn Dato. She chooses to love me in the ways that make me feel loved. She seeks to know my heart. She wants to be together. She will confront me when I am stubborn and stupid. She dreams big and looks in her heart even when it hurts. Her gorgeous self lights up my life everyday!

Trevor my sweetie cherishes me everyday and makes me feel like the prettiest girl in the world. He is a comfortable place to be and his smile brings light in my life. I pray the he can know how freaking special he is! Lord help me trust you with his heart and every moment we have together.

I am so happy to be having more time seeing my silly darling dad. He really wants to teach me integrity and responsibility ha. He is a fun butter fly!.

My brother Josiah and Amy amaze me everytime I see them their deep love for each other and Rachel is inspiring! I so happy to see them so much more!

Thanks so much Jesus for my sister Bahtia whom I get the opportunity to connect with and get to know! Thank you God for doing beautiful restoration in her life! I am so happy she is living big and seeking good things!

Thank you for Kenny teaching me to love. And being g so patient and joyful!!! He is so special to me!

My mom is my best friend beyound anything! She knows everything about me! She knows even more than I!!!! Mom is an inspiration and a fun adorable person!  I am so excited to see her this week! Her face is gorgeous.

Grandma and Grandpa have been a huge blessing in my life! What would we do without them. I am so awestruck by their generousity, their faithfullness, and dedication to family and eachother. Thank you lord for them in my life!

Wow there is so much more! Sunsets...a nice house... Santa Barbara. 4 awesome jobs!! Too many friend to even know what to do with! :)

My cup overflows... I pray it may be pleasing to the lord. That you protect my wandering silly heart! I seek adventure, importance, belonging, family, and joy! I reach out and grasp it! Please wipe off any residue of ungratefullnes from my bones!

NEW YEARS GOALS

VISIT FAMILY @ least once a week

BLOG/Write stories

Play Guitar and Sing

Plan Fun Trips


Cook

Surf

Paint

Hike

Know God's Heart for me

Save pics from Facebook

A year of Return

I apologize to my blog, myself, and to whom ever it may concern that I have not been writing about this amazing journey of life. Before I described my travels and their highlights because it was a special journey and something that I will never forget and that I wanted to hold onto in some way with a very strong grasp.

Yet here I am still on a journey always aching for adventure and delight. I decide today to treat my life here as if I am traveling somewhere mysterious and adventurous. I will need to take some time of reflection on this past year transitioning into regular life after being abroad, after graduating, after moving out on my own, and other sweet challenges that have accompanied my life since I last blogged.

I am not here to put a list of what has been done, rather it is to remember to see the mystery in each day and to remember the moments I am so blessed to have been a part of.

HERE I AM NOW WITH THE DELIGHT OF MY LIFE OXOOXOXO