May 5 second day in Colorado

Amazing day began day by giving my whole heart and all concerns to Jesus. Reflected on his word and did 34 min kinethetics.

Met up w friend Jon and we went to Boulder ate @ salt and hiked a mountain. Also we enjoyed exploring a local bookstore. Went grocery shopping. We had a blast catching up and chatting about anything and everything.  Such a blessed day to be treated to lunch and groceries. I am overwhelmed with how God is taking care of me. What a blessed daay! I am ready to pick up my friend Leah @ z airport!

Colorado

Landed in Colorado for my first trip since graduation Hawaii trip last may 10! I wake up sat. May 4th @ 3:30 am scramble to get to the Hyatt hotel to be picked up by the Airbus. My sweet boyfriend stands to wave goodbye and blow me kisses as I set off.
A couple hours later I am bustling through the airport getting ob the plane and wala land in Colorado.
I spend the afternoon catching up w a dear friend I have known for 5 years now Brandon Heidemann. Such a blessing and joy to be around. He is constantly encouraging me to seek after God and live on the edge on a precipice of faith.

I walk out in faith not knowing where to go or stay for the night. Try to make Calls so I can go to the gala dinner yet there is no response. Brandon invites me to go to red rocks amphitheatre to see Kari Jobe and Chris Tomlin play on their last night of the burning lights tour.

I had prayed in my heart to God that I could go. I didn't tell Brandon yet he invited me and I got to be taken on an adventure. Where we got to arrive @ 4:45 2 1/2 hours early get free VIP seating and reminiscent about the concert that we put on 2 years ago @ that same venue. How absolutely magical that location is and how awesomely romantic Jesus is.

I felt so deeply loved by Jesus last night worshiping him w some amazing music in his creation!  I am awestruck with blessing. I will post pics as soon as I get wifi to connect pics to tablet.

Then after the amazing show I get to stay @ a house in wheatridge co. Get my own house for the night! My friend r outa town and said I could sttay here all week. How blessed am I!?

Today I bow my knees to my Jesus and I say thank you for your word, your presence, and your promises. Help me remember the blessing and live fully in you. Help me look in your eyes and know I am safe and loved. "You reach out your hand, and the power of your right hand saves me. The lord will work out his plans for my life- for your faithful love, o lord, endures forever. DONT abandon me, for you made me." Psalm 138:7-8

Worth

Worth it all...a song I once heard. We have all heard songs of love..of life.  Of heart ache...there is a gentle pull towards the lyrics but an overall lurching of the spirit to be healed by the magic touch of tone.

Lord I pray that I can know what I am living for...that I can remember you are my life...you do fill me with overwhelming joy and comfort my soul. I may feel alone or @ loss. But I have decided I will wait for you. I pray that every moment I remember you and I choose to honor you and please you above all. I need you to move my soul to be my hero to be my sweetheart. My heart is taring In my chest...the thought of lonely nights and no hand reaching out to me to hold...it Burns and stings to think this could be it. This is the last touch ..the last moment...

Dates w Jesus

I have the strongest pull to be romanced by Jesus. And I am pretty hard to get so I been telling him I have a bf we can only be friends. But he has the kindest eyes and the purest of intentions.  He says "come away with me...I want u to see things u only dreamed of, hear music that makes your soul sour, and laugh like u never cried.." he tells me he can be my comforter and he can love me. That I just need to take a chance risk the jump be all his, give him my whole heart. I say to him " I have a bf but I will think about this, you can be my friend" then through this silly romance with the king of the world I decide,  lets have coffee and I will get to know you. I sit here now, asking " what do u see for us? What is your vision for our future" and now he wants to show me and not even tell me he says " put ur faith in me,  I have known you and I have been seeking you since the first time Light hit your eyes... OK show me....

Momma

Dreaming with Shay

We r dreaming about possibilities! They r endless! We could move to new York, Chicago,  Los Angeles, or Australia!  We have opportunity and we can do it! Lets pray and the more we do the more we dream. We gave to God our lives... God u r the Creator ...so create our lives! We give up our paint brushes and let him do it. We always make a mess of everything! We r ready to look and surrender and move with God and his purposes

The call back

The day! Denae Farley did my makeup @ Saks fifth avenue in Beverly hills! I saw channing Tatum @ the salad shop!  And another celebrity @ Saks. I see them and I see how they r no different than u nd I. Yet they pursued their career made it through the challenges that is in the acting business.

Wednesday january 16 was my day to see if i want to tackle the challengea of the acting business. I had a full day to prepare and go to the casting call in Beverly hills california. The company i interview with happens to be a fortune 5000 company! Their clients are HBO ABC NBC and lots of others as well as fashion companies! They have offices in new York Chicago Austin San Francisco and la! My interview went smoothly, I go very excited and represented myself well. I got a call back and was supposed to go there today.  It all happened too fast for me. Therefore I got scared and came home to think.

They said I can try and reschedule on Monday but they don't usually reschedule call backs! So if not that is fine. But now that I am sitting on the potential and the realization that it takes time, money and effort and dedication, passion, persistance, and a thick skin to do this. I know I could do it, yet I am deciding if it's what God wants me to invest my heart and time into! Any kind of serious career where u make money does take risk and all those things mentioned above. I believe I am cut for something like this and would really love to be able to be a part of music videos, photoshoots, and film. To portray a character and bring them to life so millions of people can feel and experience a story of another and sink their feet into someone's shoes. That sounds thrilling.
God does things in suddenly's yet our culture does things in a false sense of urgency! I am trying to decipher if its a God "suddenly" or an unnecessary urgency.

I still have potential and I am still open to the pursuit of an adventurous career. It would really be great to star in films. Not just so I can be important, but rather so I can be successful and have a lot more to give and opportunities to grasp.